Producer Amy moving to Radio 1 Breakfast

[MrDoovdeHaxorz]

Ugh, hate the feeling of being stuck. Except in my case it's with painful reminders rather than anything physical as such most of the time...

[Viv]

That is the thing with superglue these days.

[MrDoovdeHaxorz]

I thought I was making some progress through some things I was doing that were intended as theraputic... overall result has been a major plummet in overall mood again though lately, whatever I do that might help for 5 minutes at best.

[TheEpicPlum]

I have no friends.

[Viv]

Aw. Am sure you do !! *hugs*

[Viv]

I feel a bit concerned, because I seem to have broken out in various lumps and boils since a visit to the countryside @ the weekend.

Hoping it doesn't get worse. Also have sore throat. :-(

[TheEpicPlum]

My feet look horrible. And my dreams will never become realities (except the ones about Scott, obviously).

[R94N]

The riots. Hard to avoid coverage of them. I try to avoid hearing about them because it makes me so annoyed and frustrated.

[Viv]

Me too. Hard to feel sympathy for people whining about poverty whilst organising riots on three hundred pound smartphones. someone has now been arrested in glasgow for attempting to bring riots up this way.

[DC]

they are just attacking people who've done nothing wrong, and their own community too. i think the rules have to be broken this time, and heavy force has to be used to stop these bastards.

[Viv]

Yep, that's more people killed in manchester last night..... :-(

[Lee.]

Rioters in Leicester started smashing the place up and forced the nightclub I was at last night to close early meaning I couldn't get my groove on!! god damn you thugish tosspots you crossed a line :-(

[Viv]

Aw. Bless. :-(

I wonder what Cameron means by the full force of the law coming down on people. A slap on the wrist and a suspended sentence?? So much cost in locking people up after all.

[MrDoovdeHaxorz]

Nottingham rioters seem a little tame in comparison, either that or the Police put up a better containment effort here (although by all reports, the rioting gangs were smaller than those in parts of London, Manchester, Birmingham etc).

[Viv]

I always knew u wd not go too far !!

[cxx666]

Rioters in Leicester started smashing the place up and forced the nightclub I was at last night to close early meaning I couldn't get my groove on!! god damn you thugish tosspots you crossed a line :-(

They crossed a line when the Greggs went up in smoke!

[MrDoovdeHaxorz]

Fuck's sake... apparently I'm not even ALLOWED the little things I want out of life. If I can't have those, and not allowed the important stuff either, seriously questioning the point of continuing, because it's all bullshit for nothing.

Just realised, a little while ago on Facebook I responded to an event named "2013" at "Attending" I'm now seriously reconsidering that... even 2012 is dubious right now...

[Viv]

I've got a doctor's appointment next week, on account of the number of lumps I now have. :-( I remember insects piercing my skin whilst out running, and I don't know if I've got an infection on account of this.

[MrDoovdeHaxorz]

Constantly being made to feel like everything I do is somehow bad or wrong... Life continuing is not an appealing prospect right now and hasn't been for quite some time, but I'm also being made to feel like I'm not allowed to feel that way, that NOTHING at all should be wrong when it most definitely is.

[Viv]

*hugs* please keep going. Is there any kind of social "outlet" / way of letting off some steam that could help? (other than punching someone's face).

[cxx666]

I seem to be unable to have a long lie these days, I've been an early starter at work for a very long time so I've kind of got used to getting up early but at the weekends I would still manage to sleep for a bit longer although that seemed to stop happening in the last year or so.

Since I've changed jobs it seems to have got a lot worse though, At the moment I'm actually starting later than I'm used to so I'm getting up an hour later as well but I'm still not really managing to sleep that much or that well because the sleep is usually disturbed or I'm having odd dreams. Last night I drempt I was having a full on fight with a neighbour (who doesnt actually exist) because I caught him trying to steal the wheels off my car. I'm guessing this probably has a lot to do with the fact I'm very stressed at the moment but I'm concerned that it might become a vicious cycle.

[Viv]

I find it fascinating that u dream about wheels when u have a job in wheels.

[cxx666]

I find it fascinating that u dream about wheels when u have a job in wheels.

Buses don't have black alloys though

[MrDoovdeHaxorz]

This morning I actually find myself wishing I had been in Croydon on Riot night, right in the middle of Reeves as it burned away to nothing like everything inside me now has, becoming just a pile of ash. Not like I would be genuinely missed or cared about judging by the last 2 years or so.

Distraction in whatever form is no longer working, whatever I do I just lose all feeling other than a deceased emptiness in pretty much all areas of my life, and it's turning me into something I REALLY Do not Like or Want to be... maybe the worst part is that I don't know how to stop it, or that I now just feel like letting it kill me.

Even trying to get the answers I want has been like trying to get blood from stones, answers avoided or dodged conveniently, subjects changed and me being made to feel bad for wanting answers that I quite frankly deserve, even if I know I'm not going to LIKE them.

[rosie_posii]

It depresses me that I still have 3 years left of living with my brothers. They get more and more frustrating to live with everyday. If it's not why I like Radio 1 so much, or why I'm listening to podcasts, its why I don't meet up with my friends more often. I'm not a loner, but all my friends live miles away so we have to literally arrange to meet up a while before.

Thing is, their both younger than me, but will never listen to me. When I have to babysit, it's chaos.

Can't wait till I go to Uni. If I can afford it, that is...