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Been told last night (and not for the first time) that I 'deserve better'. Shame it just sounds like a stupid fucking cliche now, and that regardless of what I do, that never seems to mean I actually yunno GET what I'm being told I Deserve. All this does is tell me that I obviously deserve nothing, zilch, sweet fuck all... Also these people never (and I mean NEVER) consider that maybe what I thought I had (Quite wrongly, as it fucking turns out) WAS what I wanted, and for me maybe there WAS no better. Also funny how the people that say this are often the same ones that treated me like crap... (though not the person who told me that last night, they've at least always been honest with me, which is more than most people do...)

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I wasn't unhappy until I lost what I wanted though... well not as unhappy, it gave me something to cling to on the edge of the abyss.

Point taken though, even if it all adds to the sinking feeling that I'm somehow not allowed to want anything (it feels like I get punished for ever wanting, even if it's things I want for other people).

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Would be easier if this general feeling didn't extend to ALL other areas of my life. I'm not doing a job I particularly want to continue with (again more due to backstabbing going on than the actual job), I'm not even living in a City I particularly like...(yet feel trapped in by job and lack of funds to relocate) and I sure as hell don't like the changes all this has brought on in me... I don't want ANY of this.

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i've got to get a cracked filling repaired on september 29th 2011. The dental receptionist actually suggested an appointment for tomorrow. I turned it down. When will they learn you NEVER spring dental treatment upon me.

I haven't forgotten the time they pounced on me on my way up the stairs. Didn't even get a chance to sit in the waiting room. I'm sure they did that on purpose as well, incase I ran off.

I was quite annoyed because I was looking at their calendar to see how far forward September 29th is (nervous patient), when the receptionist asked in a really patronising voice "Are you alright?" I wound up snapping at her before leaving the bloody practice. How can you be alright @ a dentist. Did she not know I was once considered for sedation. Only this means you are so far out of it, you need to bring someone with you, to physically put you in a car, or carry you off.

Seemed to be a fuss over times of appointments as well... Getting a 1000 hours appointment seemed to be some kind of crisis, although I eventually got my own way and got the 1000 hours.

She had a really fat arse as well.

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I've had that gas as well some years back... it is blooming weird. Wound up having a dream where one tooth was chasing another round my mouth. Horrible.

People are discussing Xmas at the library this morning.... seriously, piss off... who wants to think about Xmas in early September..

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Seriously can't remember the last time a GOOD thing happened to me now, despite me continuing to do whatever I can for almost anyone else... wondering what the fuck I did to deserve constantly being shafted, screwed over, made a mockery of, ridiculed and generally fucked about. I don't want to live if this is all I get in my fucking life. Even in my dreams I can't escape, they're about me being shot, or stabbed, strangled... one of em even involved me being pushed into the path of a speeding train. Might as well make one of em come true, hey???

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STOP BEING SO NICE THEN, DOOVDE. seriously tho, why not take a day when u do things just for you, and nobody else. please dont do anything daft. i suspect you may be drunk.

When I do that, I immediately get labelled a 'self-centred bastard' so can't win there either (seriously, the way some people go on, you'd think me breathing in was a selfish act!). Really wish I knew how NOT to care about anything.

I do need some form of escape though. Even counselling hasn't been working.

I have had a little alcohol (one can and one pint, plan was for more but as usual, plans I made didn't go ahead) but it's not helping at all so have stopped. On water now. Also got the pain in my back teeth returning, at a point when it's probably not wise to take painkillers. Just. Fucking. Wonderful.

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Its been a year to the weekend since I went on my last date. Funnily enough the reason I seriously started looking for a new job was down to some comments she made, I now have a far better job and it was a year to the day from out first date to me completing my training for the job which I went for because of her........weird.

People are discussing Xmas at the library this morning.... seriously, piss off... who wants to think about Xmas in early September..

I saw Haribo Christmas tub things in Tesco last week, was in my old work this morning and they've already started to receive the Christmas stock as well but they had the descency to hide it round the back of a stand so it wasn't obvious.

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Today was meant to be a big distraction from it all... yet once again I feel worse for trying to move on from everything... DAMN ME HAVING MORALS, that's all I have to say on this one. Shafted AGAIN by things beyond my control and the actions/situations of others, and I guess also partly me not having it in me to be able to cause someone else the same kind of pain that I've had inflicted upon myself.

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